69. Resentment. A Prison Inside of You
You are hurt. Your loved one has done you wrong. Their behavior continues. The longer it lasts, the more suffocating it becomes. You try again. You fail. You are given advice to pray more, to cook more, to be nicer... Their advice seems cold to you, personally demeaning and is and abusive in itself! You tell yourself this is not abuse because you are not damaged physically. Really? You almost wish you could prove to others physically what is happening internally. Resentment comes in.
Think of a big tree with its long root system. When the roots are healthy the tree is strong. When the roots are weakened by outside sources the tree becomes weak and unhealthy. You are like that tree. Whether its poison that the weakness occurs or other sources that affect it, it often looses its health, its leaves and its healthy presence.
You are the walking wounded. Your heart has been broken. There is no way anyone can understand what you are going through. That's what it often feels like. It feels like an open wound. Emotional abuse indeed abuse at its most sinister form. It destroys your spirit. Are you willing and able to walk through trails of blood to your healing??? It can even cause more damage to you by festering through resentment. Psalm 147:3 states "He heals the brokenhearted and binds us their wounds." How is that even possible?
It's possible. You were created by the intricate, loving plan of the Creator. Your path has been destined before it came to be. This is a painful trial. There actually is an end in sight. You cannot see or feel it yet. Trust is asked of you. Been there and it hurt! It's difficult.
Psalm 34:18 assures "The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit." That means you. When it's too much, please reach out to a trusted person. I am available through Facebook, and charge according to income level. This freedom enables you to book privately at your convenience. Please mark "like" in this post if you found it interesting and share. Also, please provide feedback about these posts!